ki-o-ku飛んでいく

to a better place already…

Daphne Tay — Sun, 06 Sep 2009 17:35:48 +0000

to a better place already hopefully…

weekends :)

Daphne Tay — Sun, 31 May 2009 14:20:30 +0000

on saturday, weiling and I went back for jap classes as usual but this time, it was going to be totally different, it was going to be the last, it was the last time, it was the last time Aya sensei is going to be teaching us and even now, I think I am going to miss her very very much, i am missing her even now already, she is going back to Japan and she most probably won’t be coming back anymore, I am going to miss her cause of many many many many tons of little things, she was my third jap teacher who taught me jap, also, whenever jia nan, weiling and I go for lunch after classes, we would always see her! :) Also, we always try to decipher what she is saying but she too always takes the efforts to guide us and convey the message of the real meaning of a sentence, definetely going to miss her very very much! Aya sensei, we are all going to miss you! We took pictures after classes with her, thinking that that would be the last lesson with her, I couldn’t help but feel sad cause she has already been teaching us for half a year already, there is a feeling there, a nostalgic feeling that is going to be lost.

goodbyes are the hardest things to say…

sayonara is the hardest thing to say…

cause when you say it, you don’t mean it.

you don’t feel it until you don’t see it.

we saw Mr Maurice Ling also!

went for my cca BBQ today at Pasir Ris park with dearest classmates, shu xian who always made me laugh until my battery flat until I go crazy, jiamin who look like red riding hood that day, weiling who always had a signature pose, lily who pointed fingers with the child and weiling who imitated to be the baby on the MRT seat, laughs! and samantha who is also always laughing together and peiling hehe! :)

today, I got up really early to get to Toa Payoh for the Rufu Run

it was our last practice before the actual next week,

charlie played the song “peng you” and “SD” song using his guitar, it was really nice and I got to know of this girl Renee who I got to know also from DFST!

chatted with shilei and some of the other SD friends there who tod me to toil until my soil is fertile, it is a very meaningful quote!

something made me want to remember today…

at Raffles place or city hall, I can’t remember the time either, I saw a shadow from the MRT gates

I didn’t really take much notice cause the auntie giving a man directions as to which train he should take to get to his destination…

when I suddenly saw the reflection, the same familar sight, that very hair, in fact I didn’t know why I thought of that either, I personally don’t know that person but that person was someone I one-sided know, I turned around and, it was indeed that person, that very person and for no reason, it may my day a little brighter during that moment.

it was 8.59am when I reached Toa Payoh, that train, that shadow, that reflection, I would cherish it in my mind cause it may be the last time I probably will be seeing this again.

Revamp’

Daphne Tay — Fri, 29 May 2009 17:08:20 +0000

What have you been doing all this while?

You woke up finally after all this while but how are you going to piece back the pieces left behind?

something that I started pondering after chatting to pl.

these bunch of people are worth more than these.

What have you been thinking all this while?

What have you been doing all this while?

shuyi, thanks for all the advice, I don’t know if that would make any change but thanks anyway!

ps. face it, this is life, this is reality and there is nothing that is going to change all of these but you and only you.

distance.

Daphne Tay — Wed, 27 May 2009 17:16:23 +0000

today,

A few minutes again, I was looking at millions of sight, life is like a rounding rain…

I was talking to a good friend of mine whom I felt I have negelected all along, she used to be my best friend in the past, that was 2years ago, we have all grown up, she, she was someone who I used to confide whenever I am down or have any problems, and yes, I regretted thoroughly.

daphne, whats there to drag on about???

ok, when I was talking to her, she told me that to be exact, we haven’t even contacted for 2 years already, time flies and it was my fault for not contacting her due to some problems that have always been constantly up in my mind bothering me, flustering me.

ok, distant, DISTANT, DISTANCE.

that is what we have all become now.

dunno how I am going to fix and piece back the pieces, I guess its too late now also, let time speak.

I know sorry won’t bring back anything, it wouldn’t piece back those broken memories, the commas that I left behind, the dots that I left behind, the leftover hunger, I am so sorry, so so sorry…

I finally saw my soul shining through.

bye.

school work, jiayou!

DISAPPEARANCE.

Daphne Tay — Sun, 24 May 2009 09:26:50 +0000

over time, over time, over time really, you will realize those who really cared for you unconditionally,

more than the little short-termed hopeful joy and glee that they give,

the appreciation and glimpse of love through their eye, it is so worthy, all so nice and I have just seen the power of gratitude today with the bunch of friends from SD,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHARLIE! you will really make a really good tour guide, I bet you will be!

the run today was tough, but with all of you around, we can do it as one, we will, jiayou SD!

there was a really cute little kitten that we saw today, it look like a he, we fed it water, played with the cute little kitten and it rolled around jolly-illy and rolled over and over again, slopping around us, the little things, these little thing make out the best in everything, suddenly.

and of course! Happy Birthday Eunice!

and Happy Birthday in advance to Jiayi, Melissa and Sean.

the common tasks are beautiful if we have eyes to see their shining minstry,

if all problems could just dissappear like a mirage, how innocent would life be?

simplicity and purity are the twon wings that lift a person up from earthy concerns.

sometimes in life, no matter how much you try, this is just it.

someone said, someone who knows you well enough will know and would have noticed at the very first sight that your presence wasn’t around, will keep searching for you with a little message, those who know you well enough would know the mystery behind your mystery.

someone who knows you from the heart, would laugh out with you, share the little smiles, boredom with you and encourage you to fight on!

hai ou! hai ou! jiayou!

where does my heart beat now?

I know you would be the ones who would most probably find me in the end.

Tell me where should I find myself.

A new day comes, A new day would come, A new day came and told me to stay strong.

stressed.

What do the seashells tell you?

Daphne Tay — Sun, 10 May 2009 02:08:04 +0000

What do the seashells tell you What do they tell you? What do you listen and hear to when you put your ears right beside the little coral shells? What do they tell you? This may probably well be the last event that I will be going for under comm serv subcom, I know that I will definitely be missing them, the small, big, little, tiny events that we used to participate and put our hearts into planning, thinking back, I really had lots of fun with these bunch of people, laughing, joking and teasing. I am definitely gonna miss all of these, money is not going to buy all these time and precious moments back, they are well and greatest at its instant. Just like cup noodles, great and good to go after the hot water goes in. The story in cs is also the same, great, warm, loving and good on the go. Good memories aren’t meant to last, just like how happy hours always fly at the wink of our eyes before we even know it. Yesterday, it was an event for the epilepsy association, again, I learn something more about the peoples that we may find, we may not realize and we may just happen to be a passer by without noticing cause flaws are always meant to be hidden, aren’t they? I met this lady who was also from Soka, the world is really small, and I somehow understood some stuffs more about life from her, to help other regardless of who they are. And and, kek bing saw a guy peeing at the side beside the bin and shouted so loud, I guess she almost freak the guy there out. And I saw a cat sitting by the side of the river for the first time, cause I got to know that the fish was searching for fish. That’s something to learn about reality. Let me think, what else did I see? Oh yes, I went to sight see over at the ERP highways, taking quick snapshots, hoping to capture every moment of life, where I have been to, the great times, the environment, the moments and the atmosphere, it is unimaginable how seeing and walking around the streets tell you so so much more about what life may be all about. And this was my first time being part of the carrying of the dragon boats back to the counter, I only carried canoes the other time. Also, it was the first time I understood how dragon boats should be kept, how come there should be a huge piece of empty hollow metal block placed over it. And the paddle was so heavy, it would be almst brilliant if you could even carry it home. And I saw a dead fish and how ripples meant breathe and the likelihood of having life present. And and, I saw this two little girls who were really cute and sweet, they were picking seashells from she shore. They reminded me of myself, how I used to always search for shells the other time when I was at pulau ubin, st john’s island, Sentosa and when I was over abroad. How I used to search all over the sands just to look for the pretty sea shells and throwing back those that still had life back into the deep sea. It was all so fun, all so memorable. So, I guess they had a great time too, I went over to grab and search for some shells for them cause shells could really make you feel life somewhere closer to you, especially the big ones where you can put the shells right beside your ears and hear the hollowness and sometimes, the sounds of how you may picture the sea to be. We help some of the people to put on their life jackets, it was quite cool. And I also met this lady, a nice lady who came from UK, she asked my name and she said she was here right even before I was born in 1982. cool! Sometimes, I wonder, how these people could just leave everything behind and come to a foreign land and not be missing their homelands at all. I really wonder, something to try to decipher about. I chatted with this really nice lady about how dragon boats should had a built in hole so that the water could be drained, talk to her quite randomly for some time, she was really nice. Yeps, that’s about it for now, I will add on if I remember anything else.

101.

Daphne Tay — Fri, 08 May 2009 16:56:57 +0000

a few hours ago, we just had our last lecture with Mr Calvin Lee who was our lecturer for Introduction to Mircobiology last year and taught us for quite a long time, yesterday was his last lesson, I dozed off a little, which I think I shouldn’t cause its basic courtesy and respect, he was quite pissed with our class and of course, I can’t help but to fell gulity also cause I was almost dozing off already, anyway, we forgot to tell him this, so if he is reading, thanks sir for teaching us and sorry to make your last lesson with us a little unpleasant.

melancholic’s 100th post

Daphne Tay — Wed, 06 May 2009 09:26:56 +0000

during psychology lessons, I learnt that,

I am not unusual, probably rather rarely unusual.

these is all about the world of melancholics, their mindset, their thoughts and their ideals.

do you know?

there are actually 2 types of people in the world, there is a group of introvert, and the other extrovert.

under introvert, there is melancholic and phlegmatic and under extrovert, there is choleric and sanguine.

sounds strange,

strange not,

it defines you and your personality.

through the classes, I realize that I was a melancholic.

and people who are melancholic have heavy swings in moods,

for example, you can feel so happy suddenly and depressed suddenly such that melancholic people are the majority and that these group of people unfortunately tend to fall into depression. However, these bunch of us are self sacrificing, like we will feel gulity even if we don’t give up a seat for the elderly and usually, we will choose not to take the priority seat.

an example the lecturer quoted was that if you see a little girl drolling at you while you are holding a ice-cream cone, melacholic people who give up their cones usually no matter how hungry they are, cause they tend to be really sensitive and emotional.

here are some characteristics of a melancholic

good points: dependable, sensitive, analytical, perfectionist, self-sacrificing, gifted, loyal and faithful

weaknesses: introvert, unsociable, rigid, moody, suspicious

and Mr Lee Kuan Yew is said to be fore-front, he is a choleric, people who are choleric aren’t that emotional and tend to want to get things done right straight away regardless of how the opposite person may be feeling.

it is said that choleric people are the best to be great big, huge leaders and bosses.

sanguine people are people who tend to be hyperactive all the time, cheering people up, always being loud, more open and sociable.

phlegmatic people are the bunch of people who very much agree on anything, they tend to also keep things to their own.

melancholic and phlegmatic belong to the same category and sanguine and choleric belong to the same category.

however, sanguines are the direct opposites of melancholic and phlegmatics are the total opposite from cholerics.

also, it is known that melancholic and phlegmatic people tend to be really emotional and they use their HEARTS to think while the choleric and sanguine people tend to be more rational and use their MINDS.

does this sound in anyway just like you?

don’t be amazed or awed cause you may probably too belong to the bunch of us, the melancholics who have really difference in mood swings and are always that unpredictable. :)

the mood swings that melancholics have is like a merry-go round, a carousel that spins and spins, and jackpot or not, it is always unpredictable.

so next time, if you feel that you feel like you own the whole wide world in a minute and the next minute felt that you have loose grip to the whole world, don’t feel weird cause you may just be a melancholic. :)

good times tend to come to an end so soon, it wasn’t and was not and was never meant to last right?

I hope that we stay just the way we used to during the student council days back in school.

and Happy birthday Peiyi! :)

thats all for now, it’s time for me to get back to my formal reports.

come back soon! :)

A friend who somehow thinks the same as I do.

Daphne Tay — Thu, 30 Apr 2009 14:45:16 +0000

Teenage is not all about teenage Today, I am glad that I had a mind to heart talk with Jonathan, a primary school friend of mine which I was never so close with cause when he was young, he was naughty, going all over pulling erasers under the seats of chairs, playing rubber shooting games, He was the one who thought the way I do, that’s my perspective. Finally, god have me someone who I could talk to at least briefly, someone who I think, thinks roughly like the way I do. I just got to know a video of children in Philippines, having to live in their own happy world. Though they were munching on left-over chicken wings left in the bins, you could still see the glow on their faces and how happy they were, as though they were floating on air. There are really two sides of the world, you would say, the greener side of the field on the other end of the world. There are 6 billion people out there and unless we choose to make a comparison, do we think about and feel for them. I seem to have already felt for them, Emily told me that if I would want to go see these people and help them a little, I would definitely not be able to hold my tears. Again, Jona reminded me that in life, nothing is perfect. As we grow older, we seem to see more That there is more than just the blue skies that we see out from the windows. I want to take to the skies! I want to sing in the skies and show you the best of mine! I seem to be stoning all along this week, looking and feeling so lost and aimless all of a sudden, that I didn’t realize that I was not even alive this week, I was a mere walking zombie. Jona saw me the other day waiting for the train and said that I didn’t look at the best of moods, that I gave a not a very good mood look. Which when I thought again, I felt that was very true. We are dying to live even though we are living to die I heard from mummy that a friend of hers was struggling and having a really though fight battling cancer, I hope the pain will go away, I hope she will hang on, She is really brave. Hearing about this, I remember how auntie Vivian, a close friend of my aunt, someone who love me alot, accompanied me through my childhood left me. I remembered her last call and my last conversation with her. I was young, immature, and I said that I want to see her again, but I don’t think I ever will again. I hope she is happy up there in heaven, may god stay with her all the time and bless her always! Jona said something really funny Do you know why we are living? Make a wild guess! Its because our parents made love. Lol! That’s his reason! fact is, im totally lost why does human have such intelligence yet is not able to find even the meaning of life i think animals somehow have it better than us. Be back soon.

to learn, is to adapt!

Daphne Tay — Tue, 28 Apr 2009 12:58:40 +0000

continue swimming, till you see the shore, see the light at the end of the tunnel.

realization falls on me
that in life, we have to really work hard for what we want

that things do not always land the way we want them to be

but adapt, hang on, persevering, accomodating and adapting again is the only way to carry on…

life reloves around us, not the other way round.

hanging on.